I’ve been quiet this summer, save for a few posts here and there.
As I’ve blogged before, there has been a lot of change flowing through my life lately.
I’m still running #PPDChat but increasingly quiet on Facebook and Twitter as well. I haven’t had a video chat in what feels like weeks. Between visits with my kids, falling in love, and re-defining myself (again), there’s been a lot of time spent in my head and focusing on what’s really important to me these days – actually LIVING life.
In the dust though, I’ve been ignoring this place, this blog which kept me sane during my pregnancy with my third child and has allowed so many women to feel supported and less alone as they too navigate the trails of Postpartum Mood & Anxiety Disorders.
I’m silent here because I’m not sure what to say in this space right now. I know that working with women through the Postpartum period is something I want to continue doing. But right now, I’m not sure how to fill this space, how to speak about Postpartum Mood Disorders when my experience and understanding of my experience has literally been redefined over a lot of internal re-evaluation over this past year.
Sure, I can discuss the latest news, issues, etc, but that’s what Katherine Stone over at Postpartum Progress is best at and I certainly don’t want to duplicate her work. What I do here is my thing – it’s filled with heart, compassion, understanding, and my goal is to put forth the feeling of the comfort of reading a letter from a girlfriend who GETS WHERE YOU ARE and can assure you that there’s a light at the end of your tunnel. I freeze when I don’t feel as if I am writing with all of my heart. I freeze if I am not giving things my all. I know what it’s like to not get support and don’t want to give you anything but my very best. Because when you’re hurting and lost in the vortex of a Postpartum Mood & Anxiety Disorder, you deserve NOTHING BUT THE BEST COMPASSION I CAN GIVE YOU.
Right now, as I let the dust settle (again), in my life, I hope you’ll be patient and understanding. Know you can find me on Twitter. Or if you aren’t on Twitter, go follow my FB page and drop me a message there. Or email me. It may take me longer to get back to you via email though, so please be patient.
My words are somewhere out there, my passion is still burning deep inside me. It just needs a vacation as the scaffolding and remodeling continues within.
Here’s to looking forward to a grand re-opening and here’s to hoping that it’s right around the corner.
*hugs* You provide so much support for all of us out there who have/are dealing with a PPMD, and taking breaks in blogging doesn’t change that. You still have to do you. <3
Love you lots & so happy to hear of your exciting & enlightening past few months. You & we all know this space is here when you want/need it & we’ll all be here when that time comes. What you’re doing at the moment is called self-care & that is what so many of us want too, so even though you’re not less visible here, you’re still a shining torch of example.
Love you lots xoxo
Love you & so happy that the past few months have been enlightening & exciting. You deserve it. You might not be using this space or needing it atm, but you & we all know it’s here when & if you want/need it. You are doing exactly what you preach – looking after yourself before you can look after anyone else. Self-care my love, that’s what it’s called.
Lauren, your blog has been so amazingly supportive for so many women and it makes sense there comes a time when things shift and your own life needs your attention. This doesn’t lessen for one second what you’ve brought to so many others lives. Thank-you! And I personally wish you all the happiness in this next chapter of your life. Look forward to hearing all about it (if you choose to share). x
Your support is still out there, alive and well. And it will continue to be whether you write here or not. Do what you need to do. :)
you have given beautiful voice to my thoughts the last couple weeks. My blog will get to speak again today or tomorrow…
(hugs) thank you.
I think, one of the most important things to remember as a mental health blogger, is that it’s good to take time for yourself and allow the dust to settle.